In my mind you are still out in the herd where you belong. Nothing ever happened and you are still here with us. It was all a nightmare that never really happened.
Oh, how I wish that was true.
Emmy, I miss you already. You never had stunning conformation, or an amazing udder, you may not have been worth much in the show world. But you were worth so much to us! We loved you dearly. I will miss seeing your face every morning in the barn, I will miss milking you. What a dream you were to milk! And I could always count on you for milk, you didn't get your dam's conformation and beautiful udder, but somewhere, somehow you inherited the will to milk for all it was worth! Reaching 10 lbs a day just 3 days after freshening, and reaching 16 lbs and climbing just days before you died.
It tears me up inside to think of your ever familiar presence in my herd, gone for ever. I'll never see you again, or milk you, or hear your voice that I could so easily pick out from all the other goats in the herd, or see the beautiful kids you gave me time after time. Only 4 short years you were with us, but I'm thankful for those 4 years. You were so much like your dam, calm, friendly, sweet, and patient with the many little children that loved to milk you. And you left me with a daughter that is so much like you in every way it's crazy. I keep thinking I've gone back in time, and I'm seeing you as a kid all over again. 3 of your sons are at work in other herds now, and though I never really meant to sell them as bucks they somehow left the farm still intact. And they were such beautiful boys too! Your first son, Ebony is working in the Green T herd now so I'll always be able to see your grandkids.
I wish you hadn't left us so soon, I only wish I could have done something to save you.
It hurt me to see you in so much pain, I'm glad for you that's it's over now.
You left a hole in my herd and my heart, Emerald.
I love you.
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